Act 1: Chasing Sillhouettes
The first entry in the Niko saga. Here we see the origins of Niko’s quirky, yet entertaining adventure.
Act one: intro
I made CS ( Chasing Silhouettes ) for the purpose to explore my uncharted feelings of vulnerability in one of my past relationships. I thought of the idea when I was in my room, alone as most are after a break up, and all I could think about were the good times of a quite chaotic relationship.
hitch hiking through PA. Photo captured by J. Zalis
Projecting this imagery of a relationship without wounds or scars that were embedded deeply into my sub conscious. It felt as though I was chasing this shadow and never catching it, or holding It in my hands, really just never fully having grasp of something. Always yearning, never obtaining.
Vulnerability
Due to my blinded desire to be with something I knew was bad for me, I developed this habit of chasing instead of staying and holding my ground. Which left me feeling like I was stripped of my own dignity and transparent to the world.
Resolution
Although the song possesses elements of warmth and love, it goes without question that what I seek throughout this journey is some type of closure in my life. Whether its from the relationship or from a time in my life only time will tell
Conclusion.
When I started this part of my journey I was in a relapsed mindset. One that was filled with bouts of anxiety and depression. As I searched for answers far and wide, none stood out as much as the ones that blasted in my head. I am still as lost as ever… I guess I must keep going..